Me

Trying to deal with a separation with a person that I wanted to be in a relationship with but got degraded to a friendship but we were making it still like a relationship?? Like being in that middle casual in between, makes it hard to sort out my feelings and so I’m confused constantly on how I should treat her. I love her, I want it to be a relationship, but she’s working on herself which I totally respect and love. One minute I’m like “I WILL NOT BE A BACK BURNER BITCH,” when I want to walk away, but the other I’m like “I will be there for her and will give her the support that she needs in this new environment.”

For those who remember my Red chapter long ago in HS, the way I feel now is almost exactly how I felt with Red. Today I felt like listening to a bit of Lana Del Rey, and it was like automatic flash back to my pain days with Red. Not only was I remembering what I was thinking about during that time but also the deep pain in my chest that I felt CONSTANTLY. If I got through that…I can get through this…..

I love her, I don’t think I will fall out of love with her any time soon since this is different. I know that she’s a good person, and she is legit working on herself and I know that she likes me back. But I have to continue working on myself throughout all of this too. I need to regain me, Me. But since college, which version of myself do I go back to? I was pretty confident but naive in HS, so a smart first then confident or confident throughout while thinking through things person? The third one sounds good for now. I need to get off my lazy procrastinating butt, finish my assignments/projects/tests, GO TO FRICKEN OFFICE HOURS and finish this semester strong. In HS I had my mom to push me through to finish my assignments, but now I just have myself. Even though my mom is hardcore pushing me right now to finish, she’s been like this since HS. Through my tough times she knew that I could do it. I need to harvest that energy that she gave me and push through.

I love her.

sexhaver:

remember when people on here back in 2k12 would regularly hit post limit and have a special side blog they switched over to when their main one got throttled for the day? did they remove post limit or did we all just grow up and stop talking so fucking much?

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ayusaurus:

catchymemes:

OP I think we need to have a talk about your definition of “slightly uncomfortable” because my levels of rage skyrocketed faster than it took Thanos to snap his fingers

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uglyemo:

please read this

(via captain-rook)

Portfolio for MLA program?

Doesn’t have a BS in Design….sends in Sims house creations perhaps?

Take mah creative exxpresssions pls